Living with Logan: December stabbity crankiness

I declare today to be selfish blog day. Mark your calendars: Tuesday, December 7, 2010 is the first annual LwL Selfish Blog Day. I am, in fact, feeling sorry for myself, and the Daddy is tired of hearing about it, so you, my dear followers and random readers, get to hear all about it.... kind of.

I am tired of people asking if I am premenstrual and/or pregnant. Probably this means I should adjust my attitude and start exercising, but I just don't wanna.

I am tired of being surrounded by Christmas happiness and light even before Thanksgiving, knowing that some of my monsters have a father that frankly does not care, who will not be sending even a Christmas card to monsters 1- 4 this year. He sent #1 an EMAIL to drop that little tidbit. My monsters are sad and THAT has made me stabbity. Idiot ex, are you READING THIS??? I have so many new words to use regarding you.

I am tired of having high blood pressure for the last two weeks, when I have had low blood pressure my ENTIRE life.

I am tired of searching and searching and searching for gfcfsfef cookies/breads/pizza crusts etc. to bake for Christmas that the entire family will enjoy, so Logan can have treats, too. There are thousands of recipes out there, and I have yet to find a gfcf chocolate chip cookie to rival a Tollhouse. And that crankifies me. And makes me sad, because dang it, LOGAN DESERVES CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES TOO!!

I am tired of hearing "I want this" and "I want that" from the monsters regarding Christmas, and knowing that the budget this year may not stretch as far as it needs to.

I'm not going to apologize for any of this. Here's why: So very many people have told me that they are envious of my "amazing attitude" and how smoothly things seem to run at the Monster House.It just ain't so. I'm a normal human being with an above average number of children, operating on an average annual income for most families of 4 or 5.

I'm just worn out. I don't know what it is about December that just amps up the stabbity crankiness. And my blood pressure, and my complete certainty that I will not last the month without having a stroke and/or heart attack. Someone out there PLEASE tell me I'm not the only one...

And lastly, because it is the most important. If even ONE more person consoles me, or my children, or the Daddy because we have Logan, I WILL BLOW!!!